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Come Clean

by Blue Cactus

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Sometimes we are the last person to tell ourselves the truth. We ignore our gut, suppress our instincts, and go through the motions of a life that other people have defined for us. We convince ourselves that this is easier and that we will come around in time. We become the person everyone else wants us to be and lose ourselves along the way. Sometimes we do this until that burning feeling in the pit of our bellies becomes too visceral, and we are forced to reconcile ourselves. “Come Clean” is about giving ourselves permission to be ourselves unapologetically. It’s also about acknowledging the struggle in that journey. It’s that hard, unflinching look in the mirror.
In 2017 I was in the process of separating from my then husband. I wrote most of this song during that time. It wasn’t until a year later after the divorce was finalized that I was able to find the words that had been missing from this song. I was carrying a lot of shame and guilt, and once I finally let that go, I was free to rediscover who I was as a person outside of that relationship. I was finally free to love me.

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lyrics

I think it's about time I come clean
The hardest part is settling
I think it's about time I got right with me
‘Cause I've been becoming everybody
I never wanted to be

I didn't want to be your liar
But you made a good one out of me
I didn't want to be your fighter
'Til you put me in the ring
Now I just want to come clean

Every man's heart is made for breaking
And now I done the damage too
Heavy words keep dragging me
Carrying all the weight
Of your gravity

I didn't want to be your liar
But you made a good one out of me
I didn't want to be your fighter
'Til you put me in the ring
Now I just want to come clean

credits

released March 5, 2021
Performance:
Steph Stewart - Vocals, acoustic guitar
Mario Arnez - Vocals, electric & acoustic guitars
Alex Bingham - Bass
Joe MacPhail - Wurlitzer, Mellotron
Whit Wright - Pedal Steel
Gabe Anderson - Drums, percussion

Production:
Written by Steph Stewart & Mario Arnez
Produced by Alex Bingham & Blue Cactus
Recorded at Bedtown Studios
Engineered by Ryan Johnson & Saman Khoujinian
Mixed by Ryan Johnson, Silkworm Sound
Mastered by Greg Abate, Neon Audio

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"If you've ever wondered where country and Americana music is going, look no further. Blue Cactus is painting pictures of limitless possibility."
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"You can't help but fall in love with the heartache."
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"If country music is often about familiarity and comfort, this is more like having the rug artfully pulled out from under you without even noticing it."
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